4 more weeks to the BIG DAY!

GASP. I know i have been gasp-ing everytime I get reminded about how near the Wedding is drawing near.... and I'm feeling it again! Haha.

Most of the items seem to have been checked off the checklist, and it looks like we're pretty much all set for the big day... of course having to run a few more errands and settle a few more stuffs as the actual day draws closer. I've been hearing more and more people commenting that their very impressed or even bewildered on the way we go about our wedding preparation... because things seem to be all organised already and there's hardly a trace of fluster on my face. Haha, thanks! I guess i have been stressed out, just that I don't show it on my face? There's nothing much to be stressed out really, isn't it? Esp when there's still time... which is the great advantage that we had for planning things ahead and having ample time from the proposal leading up to the wedding day itself.  I guess I don't ramble and talk all about my wedding and preps (unlike some other people I know) as much too...until probed.. I just feel that there's always a time to talk about your wonderful wedding and there's also other times when it's also good to remember while your life at this moment as a bride/groom-to-be revolves round your wedding, it's not so for others. So I've been quite mindful to not look like a bridezilla who's crazy about her wedding more than anything else. I think I did well,  if I may say so myself. Even I get annoyed when I end up having to talk about my wedding plans and preparation at length. I'm really more interested to talk about the values of marriage and learn how people upkeep their marriages... yeah, just find that it's so much more important than a wedding really.

I'm starting to realise more and more about how life changes after getting married. I mean, with the hustle and bustle of wedding preparations... sometimes it's really quite easy to fall into the mindset of event organisation and forget abit on the fact that this is a huge milestone and life changing event for both myself and Kenny. It hits me more often lately, and it leaves me in awe and sometimes a little dumbfounded as it sinks in on how different life's gonna be like after getting married. It's actually both a very exciting yet bittersweet moment... while I'm looking forward to the next phase of my life together with Kenny, there's also this part of me that can't bear to move forward. I've been told that this bittersweet moment is part and parcel of getting married... now i'm really starting to experience it.

Work-wise, there's been some changes on the company structure and I'm probably changing a new boss and that will see some changes to my role as well most likely. Damn, just when I thought I could just do what i'm doing and peacefully look forward to get married and my honeymoon, and then come back and work hard again! haha. Nevertheless, i'm trusting God, and praying that he has all these in His plans... was reminded again in church today, that I can just trust in God because I can do all things through Christ. So, we'll see how it goes on the work-front... just leave it to God as I continue to do my best.

The truth about wedding preparations...

is that, it ain't a pretty sight or a bed of roses all the time. Oh yes, that's the truth, and I sure as hell know it.

This whole wedding preparation process is like a massive project of which I feel like a project manager, having to manage 101 stakeholders. The trickiest of stakeholders of course are parents... and in my case, my mum. I had the nastiest of fight with my mum some few weeks ago, over some disagreement in customary arrangements and VIP table arrangement. It was nasty, alright. The hurtful and malicious words that my mum said to me still cause a sting in my heart every now and then when I think about it. I am thankful, however, that things seem to be have tide over and that my mum did not remain difficult after that night. I thank God, for pouring in forgiveness in my heart... I prayed night after night after that incident for forgiveness in my heart for my mum and for God to lay this incident to rest. And I must say my prayers seem to have been answered... indeed everything is best left to God, and i'm going to stop relying on my own strength and planning and ability to work out people's expecations during this period.

On a happier note, things seem to be very much on track for us in terms of the items to check off on the 'wedding prep checklist'. Haha. We bought our new mattress & bed (it's a Sealy!), and some other necessary furniture for a mini-revamp to Kenny's room as our temporary accomodation, tightened up the day and night itinerary, sent our wedding invites for printing, efiled with ROM and confirmed our Christian solemniser, selected my gowns and tailored his suit. On the gowns selection, thankfully my sisters came along with us for that... made the selection process a lot easier with some feedback from the ladies. Hehe.  Now it looks like we just need to finalise guest list soon and we will be ready to rock and send out all them invites! At this moment... still not so that excited about the wedding day, more anxiety over the preparations still. This might change as the date draws nearer, I hope!

That's all for now... 64 days to our wedding!  

Sorry I took an accidental hiatus from my blog....

Didn't realise that my last post was more than 2 months ago... -_-  is there anyone who still reads this by any chance? Hellooo~~? Haha. Ok, let's get real... i'm not going to promise myself or anyone else that i'm gonna actively blog or update this page anymore. Who am i trying to kid, right? I probably lost alot of energy and time over the years... and blogging doesn't seem to be my key priority anymore when I do actually have time to stare away from the PC screen.

Anyways, since I have some time to spare (while waiting for the stupid online software to convert my word document into a PDF file, which by the way is NOT working for a long time dammit) I shall blog to the pleasure of my invisible readers... if there's still anyone left. Haha.

I'm now slightly less than 3 months before the Wedding! Wow, where did all the time go? Certainly didn't seek my permission before they fly past me! Bleah. People have been asking me how are my preps coming along... and I should think Kenny and I have been managing this pretty well. I happen to think that things are very much still in place and on track... although there's still many things left undone, I think there's just simply not much to do till the the few weeks that really leads up to the Wedding date itself. Hence, we're cool.  I surprise myself as well, on how chill I actually am about the wedding and all the things that we needs to do... I realise i'm a lot less fussy and particular about my wedding than I had ever imagined myself to be.

After helping out friends for their weddings and after attending many weddings... I think there comes a point where I realise a 'fairytale-type of perfection' for weddings are actually, honestly quite meaningless. All the crazy preps and not to mention energy AND money spent on that 1 special albeit fleeting day.... i really wonder if it's all worth the effort. I'm not saying I'm feeling lethargic about my wedding, don't get me wrong... i'm certainly excited about what I'm gonna wear, what Kenny's tux should look like, how my bridesmaids and groomsmen are preparing for our big day... the itinerary for the day and night etc.  but I just don't see the point in achieving perfection for things that are seriously less big-deal than they really are. Some of my friends seem to freak out when they hear that I haven't chosen my actual day gown and that I haven't even an idea what I would like to wear because, apparently I am supposed to be or have been trudging through endless wedding magazines for inspiration on THE wedding gown... i guess I am just not crazy like that. Haha, which is a blessing for me. I gave up after buying 2 wedding magazines, cuz honestly what am i really supposed to see and get inspired on? Bleah! It doesn't quite work like that for me. I just know I'll find something that pleases me at MDW on the gown fitting day, and that's thaaaat.

I think what I really am more concerned about, is the day itself... will everything run smooth... will everyone be happy and smiling... and will plans all fall into what was initially planned.  I'm also very excited (starting to be!) about our honeymoon trip right after the wedding! I think it's fair to say that Kenny and I haven't been big travellors in our 6 years together, the furthest we went to was Sydney which I half worked and half acted touristy with Kenny on the trip with me. So this time we're really giving ourselves a good pampering session and spending quite a bit on our honeymoon for a long overdue trip to enjoy ourselves.

One thing though, which i've been feeling slightly bummed is that my 2 bestest friends are away and cannot be helping me as much as I would have love them to... and both of them will be flying back only 2 days before the wedding. I guess I would need to look out to other friends for help. I guess to cheer myself up I can only say that at least they're gonna make it back for my wedding.

Ah, great. My file is successfully converted into PDF. That's my cue to get back to work and stop blogging for now. Till the next update...hehe

Last post of 2011!!

A last entry before we bid farewell to 2011... and a recollection of how the year has been for me and Kenny.

2011 of course started with something surprising happening at the multi-storey carpark at my house, which triggers the beginning of a new journey for us. Kenny proposed in the wee hours of 2011 and that led to the process of us of getting our wedding preps in place. Time really flew by, can't believe it's been a year since the proposal! And now we have less than 5 months to our big day! Oh. My. Gawd. I am starting to have mini panic attacks every now and then when I realise how soon our wedding day is drawing near... haha. Nevertheless, we have decided not to worry too much and leave it all to God to provide the rest as long as we did our best to prepare for the wedding.

2011 also saw me with a change in role at work - and started my massive travelling for work as a 'jet setting' business travellor. I've been to Phillipines once, HK 3 times, Tokyo 4 times, Sydney 2 times and New York for work this year. Very crazy! For hols, I travelled to Bali and Beijing/HK. Really a lot of travelling! In 2012, I just wish that all my efforts at work will pay off soon - yes, in the monetary sense.

2011 also saw many of my friends getting married, and many upgrading their status to mothers. It was a year of realisation that we are really getting older and that our lives are all evolving. I also learnt to stop trying to please everyone and to care more about what I want and need, instead of compromising to what other people need or want - nevertheless, i still need to improve a lot in this aspect.

It's new year's eve, and I hope everyone will give thanks to the good that happened in 2011... and leave behind the unhappiness in 2011 with new hope for 2012.

For 2012 - I know it's gonna be the most exciting year yet! Just the wedding alone is big enough for me to know that 2012 is gonna be an unforgettable year. My wish for Kenny and myself is to always be loving and supportive to each other, and that we will always remember the importance of putting in effort to maintain a healthy and happy relationship together.

Let's all count our blessings as we thank 2011 for coming to a close and welcome 2012 with a joyful heart! :)

So many things that I need to update again!

2 weeks ago was one of the most hectic few days for me. I had to prepare for my bridal photoshoot, go for the photoshoot, pack my luggage for Beijing and HK and fly to Beijing and HK. It was madnesss... i was actually secretly glad when I was finally on the plane to Beijing. It was like, phew! More on the trip later.

So the bridal photoshoot came and went. Both Kenny and I were freaking out about it, simply because we don't deem ourselves as naturals in front of the camera... haha. It was a tiring full day affair with make up commencing for me at 10am and then followed by photo shoot at 3 different locations one after another - complete with a dress change and a hairstyle change for each location. Felt like a diva for a day - because I had my makeup artist with me wherever I go, and who would fervently run over and touchup my makeup in the midst of the photoshoot. Haha. So that's how celebs and models feel! I could live with that! Hahahaha.

I think both of us eventually managed to relax and then had fun during the photoshoot, kudos as well to our photog as well as the co-photog who did everything they could to make us laugh and keep us relaxed and entertained. Not an easy job for them! I was pretty amazed at how they can keep their spirits high and enthusiastic throughout the whole day... because we were like half-dead (especially me) by the time I got to the final location. Kenny commented that i was starting to look very tired and not as cooperative with the camera. Darn. Oh well, most importantly I hope it doesn't reveal itself on the photos! Hope they turn out well... though i'll most probably have a good laugh at myself and us in those photos. Can't wait for the final product - album and all to be ready! That's gonna take another 3 months... Zzzz. I also want to say, however, that whatever the outcome of the photos, I think we did well on our effort to think through our idea and 'story' for the bridal photoshoot instead of being yet another lazy couple that's churned out by the standard poses. :)

The trip to Beijing and HK was better than I thought - I survived the cold in Beijing well! I guess my work trips have made me more accustomed to the cold weather... thank god for that. Been a long time since the last holiday with my family (although this time it's just Mum and youngest sis) and it was nice... despite my Mum's grouchy face and weird antics of wearing heels to explore the ancient city. Mum was not very energetic and was complaining quite a bit about having to walk so much. Actually, during this trip, I started to realise that my Mum has aged... and that she is getting old... although she is still maintaining herself very well on the outlook, but the truth is still her body is not like last time and signs of aging are all revealing itself on her. It was actually quite a sad and scary feeling that overcame me.

Back to work this week, and I had problems today trying to get my work engine started... been away for work for too many days!! Oh well, back to the real world as usual... thankfully we're approaching the end of the year. Christmas!! Love it~